Stonehawk's Life

Message from the Highway Patrol

BEWARE OF PAPER IN THE BACK WINDOW OF YOUR VEHICLE
NEW WAY TO DO CAR JACKING
(NOT A JOKE)
Heads up everyone! Please, keep this circulating...
You walk across the parking lot, unlock your car and get inside.
You start the engine and shift into Reverse.
When you look into the rearview mirror to back out of your parking space, you notice a piece of paper stuck to the middle of the rear window. So, you shift into Park, unlock your doors, and jump out of your car to remove that paper (or whatever it is) that is obstructing your view.
When you reach the back of your car, that is when the car jackers appear out of nowhere, jump into your car and take off.
They practically mow you down as they speed off in your car.
And guess what, ladies? I bet your purse is still in the car.
So now the car jacker has your car, your home address, your money, and your keys. Your home and your whole identity are now compromised!
BEWARE OF THIS NEW SCHEME THAT IS
NOW BEING USED....
If you see a piece of paper stuck to your back window, just drive away.
Remove the paper later.
And be thankful that you read this e-mail.
I hope you will forward this to friends and family,
especially to women.
A purse contains all kinds of personal information and identification documents, and you certainly do NOT want this to fall into the wrong hands.

Please keep this going.
Thank you.
Lieutenant Tony Bartolome
Bureau of Investigations
Florida Highway Patrol
P.O. Box 593527 Orlando , FL 32859

On Easter Mom and I went to my grandma's house with me expecting my favorite meal to be cooked. Nope, Grandma didn't cook the meal and I was forced to eat the food she cooked for Mom and the relatives. I admit I'm a fussy eater and I hate eating some foods. I just don't like to eat certain foods and I avoid them. I was expecting a Cousin to be there and wore a special outfit she gave me for Christmas. Hah, she wasn't there and so was two Uncles who didn't show up. I felt like I wore the outfit for nothing. I don't think I'll be wearing that outfit for awhile. I couldn't wait to get home and get out of Grandma's house. I wanted to leave and get out of the outfit I was wearing. Mom must have gotten some mental telepathy that I wanted to leave so she drove me home. At home I got myself out of that outfit the fastest I could into my regular clothes. I feel like Easter was a fiasco like Thanksgiving. It was one of the lousiest Easters I ever had and I'm disappointed with the fiasco at Grandma's house. I feel like my family can't celebrate holidays the way I wanted them to be celebrated. Hence me complaining about them being fiascos because that's what I think they are. I emailed a relative about getting Grandma's car as a personal vehicle. Grandma already has two vehicles one driven by Grandpa. Grandma currently has health problems hitting her. I'm thinking she won't be able to drive not for a long time due to those health problems. I need a car to drive me to places like nearby stores and possible employment because there isn't much to find jobs in the town I'm living in. I don't have employment opportunities in town. Mom has been getting on my case to go to McDonalds and ask for employment. Not my thing, because what can I do there besides cleaning and scrubbing the bathrooms? Ugh, I prefer some other business like retail instead. So I have to hope that the relative I emailed checks the email account and gets my email. I also wonder what will Grandma's reaction to that message will be? I'm hoping its a yes to getting her car.

I celebrated the day by wearing green colored clothing. I figured since today is an Irish holiday I figured I might as well wear green. I think Saint Patrick's Day is an Irish holiday. That's what I think anyway.

I'm suffering from a cold that won't go away. I had post nasal drip and some nose blowing that went away. This was followed by wooziness that I've been having for two weeks so far. It is a pain in the head because I can't walk straight without effort. I also been told by the doctor to go on a no eat certain food diet like no eating chocolate. Rats I love chocolate and I'm disappointed that I can't eat it due to this wooziness. I'm also on medication for the wooziness. Dad thinks some of the other medications I'm on are causing my wooziness. I don't think so because I've been taking those medications for a long time. I haven't gotten any wooziness from them since I've started taking those medications. I don't know what's going on with me and this wooziness but it is bothering me. I feel like I can't think straight. I just don't know what to do if I run out of medicine for the wooziness and I'm still woozy. I think I have a doctor's appointment in April that I could complain to. I just hope that I can complain about this wooziness. I don't like the tipping back and forth feeling like on some boat. It's annoying me so that's what's new with me.

Bad news, I lost interests in Japan.
I did check out two books on Japan from the school library but the next day I was like do I want to read them?
Also I felt like I lost interests in Japan so I'm not going to read those books.
I already returned them back to the school library unread.
I hate it when I get these weird interests that lasts me a day or two.
It's a good thing I didn't buy any books on Japan at the bookstore when I visited there while still interested in Japan.
I'm glad I saved my money.
I don't know what I would have done with the Japan books but returned them.
It's like the Ferret craze and now I had a craze on Japan.
I don't get it why I keep getting these weird interests on stuff that last me a few days.
It's getting ridiculous.
Anyway I got to get a therapist and discus these crazes I get with him or her.
I figure the therapist could help me figure out what's going on with me.
I just am a little bit baffled on getting these crazy interests towards stuff that last a few days.
It's a mystery to me but at least the therapist would help me understand what's going on.
I think it might be a mental health issue hence me wanting to discus this with the therapist.
So I'll be sure to get a therapist soon.

I just had one of my wild phases again. I've been thinking of Japan the nation actually. I feel like I want to go there and visit to explore the country. I don't know where this comes from like what happened with the ferret phase. I think I just am curious about what's Japanese life is like. I guess I'm just curious about other nations including Japan the most. I feel like part of this idea came from thinking about the "Miss Universe" Pageant that is owned by Donald Trump. A woman from Japan won the title last year which has me very interested in her home country. I guess I'm always interested in what ever nation that wins that pageant. I was interested in Namibia when they first won the pageant. I no longer have that interest but I'm still interested in Japan. I wonder what's life like there and the people's interests in things like education and pleasure. I feel like this thought has me wanting to buy books on the Japanese language and study it along with books on Japanese culture too. It's too late for me to go out for books at this hour, it's too cold out. I'm not willing to go out shopping for this phase idea I've been having. I think this idea started when I visited "EPCOT" in Florida in the year 2000 for a college trip. "EPCOT" had a Japanese themed area in their nations section. I brought a Japanese pendant and some things from their store. My interests in Japan got more intense when I was living in a house in a rented room while attending college. One of the room renters there had family that came from Japan who lives in Brazil. The renter had a certain other whose Japanese too and they sort of influenced me in wanting to learn more about Japan. I don't know what to do about this crazy phase. I guess I have to hope I get over it. If not then I guess I'll be buying some books from bookstores on Japan. I actually hope I'll get around to reading those books on Japan if I ever buy them. I'm at the moment really slow with reading my books. I'm sort of stalling with reading books and it's been slow. Maybe I should go to the library and check out their books on Japan first. I think I can check out the school library first then the town library later if I'm not satified with their books on Japan. Maybe I could do that instead. Also I could try the internet to get information on Japan but I don't know where or what to look for on that nation. I think I'll get some nice pictures on Japanese landmarks and scenes if they strike my interests. I might as well do that and see about sleeping on this Japanese phase. I don't know if it's one of my impulse feelings or it's an interests I'm really interested in. So I'll have to sleep on the Japan idea and see how I feel in the morning. Maybe I'm just interested in Japan and it's not an impulse phase. Well I'll wait and see.

New Year's Eve: I didn't stay up watching the celebrations. I wound up sleeping away the old year in bed and welcomed the New Year asleep. I think its the first time I've missed the staying up late as midnight tradition on New Year's Eve. I guess I was too tired that I had to go to bed to sleep. I wound up doing that and I felt fine doing it.

New Year's Day: I don't remember what I did that day but I think there was a snow storm blowing outside that I wound up watching a DVD. I could have gotten my days mixed up but I remember there being a snow storm and watching a DVD. I just don't know if I watched the DVD on that day or not. I borrowed some DVDs and videos from Dad. One was "Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix". I wound up watching that DVD one day and gave it back to Dad.

Epiphany or Three King's Day: I think I went out shopping which I walked to places. I went to an antique store that was going out of business and brought a cabbage patch doll for five dollars. I also went shopping for food that isn't for a fridge. Then I walked to my Dad's house where I dumped the cabbage patch doll for storage. I don't feel like displaying it at my place. I saw the cats, one who oddly posed for pictures. I saw a cat sitting on a box in a pose and she didn't move for a bit so I took the opportunity to snap three camera cell phone pics of her. I find that odd because of the position she was sitting and not moving very much. I think cats are hard to take pictures of with their faces. When I take a camera cell phone picture of the cats I have to put up with trying to snap pics of them when they pause from moving. I sometimes get blurry photos of them because the cat moved. I guess it was nice of the cat to stand in a pose and let me take pictures of her. One cat sitting on Dad's lap let me take a photo of her face with out the flash at his advice which I got a good photo.

That's what's new with me.

I got up around 8am in the morning excited about Christmas Day. Mom came over to see me and we opened presents. I told Mom some time ago no religious themed gifts because I don't feel any connection with religion at the moment. She gave me some religious themed gifts which I stuffed on the bottom of a box for storage at my Dad's house. I hate it when she promises that she won't do some thing and wounds up doing it. Also she gave me some things I already had like a nightgown, a bathrobe and a sachel bag. I already have the exact copies of them which I pointed out to her. She claims its forgetfullness, forgetting that she already gave me the items. Then we went to church where I daydreamed not paying attention to the sermons that I even fell asleep. I was daydreaming about some story ideas that have been running in my head. I like to type down stories and I sometimes have ideas in my head that I either write or type down onto the computer. So I fell asleep sitting in church with Mom. After church was to my Dad's house to see him open a gift from me and I got some thing from him. Mom drove me to the Grandparents' house where I had lunch and then opened more presents. I even brought along my video camera and took some shots of the relatives and their cat. After presents an Uncle wound up going home early which was followed by Mom and I going home early too. I think Christmas was ok but several relatives were falling asleep after opening presents. I think they were tired. An Aunt told me of being tired hence she falling asleep on the couch. I even saw a cousin yawning while sitting on the couch with the Aunt. I have a Christmas tree up in my place which I have to decide on when to yank that thing down. I could wait till tomorrow to bring the tree down or wait till January 6th another Christmas like holiday that isn't celebrated very much. I think I'll sleep on the subject of taking down the tree waiting to see on whether I'll make up my mind. I think Christmas was better than the fiasco on Thanksgiving. I'm so glad about that cause I got to celebrate the holiday with my family and relatives too.

On Thanksgiving I went to my grandparents' house in a nearby town.
I saw the cat who didn't mind being petted.
It was a short visit due to Mom feeling tired and she wanted to go home.
All I did there was eat food and watch lousy TV.
Mom drove me home after the food and some TV.
She was feeling tired from an early morning work shift.
I wound up spending the rest of the day at home watching TV.
I didn't do much for Thanksgiving.
I feel like it was rather boring day stuffing my face and watching TV.
I think the Thanksgiving day was marred by Mom feeling exhausted.
She drove me home and went home herself.
I think my Thanksgiving was lousy.
I didn't have any fun to enjoy the holiday.
I just didn't like it not one bit.
Excuse me for putting sentences in with one line but I don't have much to say.
I just didn't like the Thanksgiving holiday I had.
I just don't like it and I think the holiday should be celebrated better with my family.
I hope this doesn't happen again next year.
I have to hope that Christmas and my birthday in December will be celebrated better than Thanksgiving.
I really hope so.

On Wednesday, Halloween Day, I planned to stay home watching kids videos "Casper" and "The Nightmare before Christmas".
I didn't watch either video.
I wound up going to a local mall.
I saw kids and people there dressed up in costumes trick or treating from stores.
Some stores wound up running out of candy, interesting.
I wound up walking to CVS on Wednesday Halloween then went to the computer lab at school to download some videos.
The service at home stinks.
It's really slow and I prefer to do this at school cause it's fast.
After that I walked to a family member's house to watch TV before going home.
The family member wound up driving me to a local mall where I nearly fell asleep there.
I was really tired.
So that's what I did for Halloween.

I saw a ferret at the pet store yesterday at a mall and decided to splurge on a book about ferrets in the mall bookstore. The book wasn't cheap, cost close to twenty dollars for this book, ouch. I wanted to get a ferret as a pet. I was filled with hopes of taking care of one and having a ferret for company. Now today I'm like do I really want to take care of a ferret? I don't know I'm having doubts about that. I'm thinking of returning that book back to the bookstore. I'm not sure if I would want to take care of one. I hate it when I get impulses and act on them. I should learn to ignore that impulse and not spend so much money on junk, ugh. I think I should have considered getting a cat instead. I do know what's it's like to take care of a cat because I've been around them for eighteen years. I'm thinking of bugging the Landlord about getting a cat. I'm sick of being lonely and bored with not much to do. I oddly have picked up a habit of pacing in my apartment out of boredom. I hate that habit because Mom claims that it scares her when I did it in front of her. So I guess I won't be getting a ferret but a cat that is an adult. I don't think I can stand for a kitten at the moment and so can the apartment I live in if the Landlord agrees for me to have a cat. Also having a furry friend here would be nice to give me something to do and at least I won't be so lonely any more. I just can't wait to get a cat. I'm fed up with this loneliness and bad cases of boredom. I just can't wait for the Landlord to agree for me to have a cat. I could really use the companionship anyway.

I haven't been posting in here due to not having much news. I think it's boredom or something. I don't know why but I guess I don't feel like posting anything in here lately.

I've been writing mostly in my notebooks of stuff which is sort of like a diary of my life. I like to write in journals but lately I don't have much news to add in here. I feel like all I have to say is boredom.

I decided not to go to school this semester hence me having nothing much to do. I'm struggling to find time to have things to do. I find myself on the computer a lot typing down stories I dream up or unexpectedly off the top of my head. I like to type down stories and ideas.

I sometimes would like it if I could get stories that come in order instead of scenes. I sometimes get scenes in my head that seem really good that I have to type them down. I'm struggling with having to connect my scenes together because the ideas are coming out jumbled. I don't know how authors can stand this.

I had a horrific first of October day. I wound unexpectedly sick throwing up my dinner. I don't get this sickness because I had no warning of me feeling like that. Last night after dinner I had a bad feeling in my chest which I thought was heartburn. The feeling persisted till 6:30pm is when I threw up. I wound up going to bed early. I haven't thrown up all night which is weird. I think something I ate caused this.

TIME
The silent cat that watches,
Watching silently as
Things come and go,
Nature grows, live and die,
I walk silently with
The sands of time,
Quiet silent witness,
Never speaking
Always silent,
From my place I sit,
Always alert
Witnessing history,
Always quiet, patient,
Silent waiting,
Time waits for no one,
Not even me.

I went out to places yesterday and spent way too much money, which I hate. I have to learn how to stop this money spending and save it on my bills instead. I think I already spent the allowance money I set aside for me this month. I pulled out some money in my account and I just spend it all in one day. I really hate it when that happens. I mostly spent this money on books. I think I have more books than I have here that I’ve read. I think I have this bad habit of buying books than reading them. I had some books I’ve brought which I automatically started reading but I lost interest in them. I wound up setting those books aside. I hate it when I get that feeling of losing interests in reading a certain book that I have to set it aside and not read the book anymore. This is really getting annoying that I’ve been losing interests in books faster than I can finish them. So I’ve been hesitating with picking new books to read. I’m worried that this unfinished book pile will get bigger and bigger till I have a bunch of books that are unfinished. I’m hoping that this won’t come true but there are some books that are unfinished and a little dated. I have some books I started when I went to college again here in town for the second time and I haven’t finished them at all. I’m disappointed in this book unfinished thing. This is bothering me quite a bit. I don't know what I can do about it but stop buying more books from now on and start saving my money instead. I guess I better start going to second hand book shops and start buying books from them so I can save my money instead. I just hope I'll be able to break myself out of that habit soon.

I wrote this poem titled "Boredom" while bored one day. I guess I might as well share it.

Boredom
Bored. Bored.
Yawning, Sighing,
Tired or not,
Nothing to do,
Feel nothing,
No computers,
Just read,
And write,
Don’t feel like,
Watching TV.

Bored, bored.
Nothing to do.
Feeling bored.
Feeling in,
Boredom.
Feel no interest,
In doing things.
All I want to do,
Is write myself,
Out of boredom.

Bored, Bored,
I wonder what,
I can do to,
Ease me from,
Boredom?

That's how I've been feeling with the Summer time.

Time Gone

Time of old,
Time of young,
Time of all,

Minutes,
Hands,
Hours,
Seconds,
Ticking away,
Bit by bit,

Life and life,
Birth,
New life born,
Death,
Life gone,

Years,
Centuries,
Days,
Going by,
Forever gone,
Into the past,

Never to return,
Again
But remembered,
In history,
By the future,
For eternity.

I don't know what to type in here lately.
I think I'm getting bored with things that my life isn't that exciting.
That's what I get for living in a small town.
Boring with a capital B, not much to add.
I feel like I haven't heard from anyone in my friends circle.
I don't know what's new with them.
One of them had a baby boy last month.
The lady is married and had her first child, good for her.
I also have a cousin who had a baby at the first of the month.
The child is the cousin's second kid.
I think I'll just hope this cousin sents me an email and a picture of the new tyke too.
I just don't know what to do in this town lately.
I'm just dying for the cold to come rolling.
Today is really hot that I managed to brave the heat to go outside to the College Library.
I'm glad that I have something to do on the computer.
I'm just not sure why I'm bored which is why this entry is in poem format with sentences each getting their own line.
I don't know what else to do next.
How boring of me.

I've been reading books like mad. I guess I'm bored and I don't have much to do around here.

I think I spent too much money on books so I guess I better go read those books I have. I do have a bunch of books to read which I really should read. I can't stop buying more books. I just don't know what to make of this book buying. I think I'm addicted to books. I guess I'm a daydreamer who likes to read books quite a lot too.

I think I like to read Romance novels because I miss having a relationship with a person. I also like reading books that give me a happy ending like in romance novels. They make me feel warm and fluffy inside. I'm not sure why I like the Romance genre but I guess it's the person I am that likes reading them.

I think I'm going to have to find a book to read before bed tonight and keep that book as a bedtime book. I finished the novel I was reading today this morning and it was really good that I practically had to finish it today.

I just don't know what else to say about reading. I feel like I should get myself some books and read them today or find something to do by doing something else.

I don't have much to add lately. I find that my life is boring due to the summer time. I don't have much to do in the summer time. I'm just a little bit bored. I'm trying to get a job for keeping my life busy but it's not easy in this town.

Here's what's new in this town:
Cafe 64 closed and went out of business. I hardly ate there very much because I'm a fussy eater and I really hate their foods. Poor Jessica, she's out of a job because she works at Cafe 64. I don't know how's she's doing with that restaurant closing.

Jerry's Deli closed and is now called Submarinos. I liked Jerry's Deli but I don't think they were getting enough business. Sometimes I would be the only person in the restaurant of Jerry's Deli eating a sandwich there. I also I have yet to eat at Submarinos and I guess maybe I will sometime. I think the restaurant is like Subway hence the word Sub in Submarinos.

I have to add I tried to get a job at a retail store called Walmart. I didn't have the information for me to fill in the job experience area. I lost my information and I have to start fresh. I find that I probably won't get a job there.

Well there's a new Target store opening in a nearby town. The store is still in the building stages. I find that I'm hoping that I could work there sometime. This would be nice.

I find that I sometimes hate the summer time because of boredom and not much excitement around here.

I have a goal that I’m hoping that I’ll die of old age in my eighties after seeing Halley’s Comet again. I hope I got the “H” name spelled right. I’m not sure if I spelled that name correct, oh well. I saw the comet twice through telescopes when I was a kid and this is a goal I’m hoping to see again which will happen when I’m in my eighties. This will happen years and decades from now. Technology for people to see the comet will be different and more powerful in the future I think. I just don’t know if this old age goal will be achieved or not. I don’t feel like living to be the oldest person on the planet Earth. It’s a nice goal but no thanks on achieving that. I just prefer to live to be in my eighties to see the comet again. I think this is one goal worth living for. I have to work on eating some correct foods and stuff like exercising too and seeing how I’ll do when I hit the age of eighty-whatever to see the comet. I’m going to be sad when I see the comet because people I know will be long gone such as my family and friends too. I’m hoping that I won’t be alone in the world when I finally see that comet again. This brings tears to my eyes when I think of this. I also hope that people will respect my wish in my old age of eighties-whatever to see Halley’s Comet again with the help of their technological marvels that will be soon invented someday. I just hope I’m sane enough to know that I’ll be seeing that comet in my eighties. I don’t want to wind up like a relative who died of Alzheimer’s. I want to remember seeing that comet and have a good clear mind when that happens even though that mind might be filled with forgetfullness. I just hope I’ll be fine enough to my standards I set myself now to be able to see that comet again.

I hardly ever win anything by myself. I think I'm one of those people who don't win very much and lose most of the time. I hate losing when it comes to games and contests stuff like that. I just do.

I won a poster of a gymnast from online. This is the first I've won something from online a website. I'm surprised that I won something. This is very interesting. I feel so good that I won something.

I correctly guessed the answer to the question the website posted. I'm so glad about that I can't believe it. I feel like I could enter more online contests but I don't want to. I don't want to spam my information for winning some items.

I think I'll just be happy with the poster I won. I hope it's really good. I saw a picture of it online and I'm hoping that the poster is signed by the gymnast I won it from the website. I guess I should be glad that I checked my email alerting me of the win.

I'm so glad about that. I guess this is good to win something even though I hate losing. I just hate losing period. I guess there's people who hate to lose too and so do I.